I have always been a reader and a crafter. Even in the early years of our marriage when I was busy with young children and seeing how far I could stretch our budget, there were always books, fabric and yarn in the house. Looking back on this, I don't know how I did all that had to be done and still produced so many hand crafted items. I was more driven then I guess, and had to fill the spare moments if I wanted things to be completed.
I am thankful that Bill has always understood this need of mine. He has never objected to the time or money spent on my crafts.
When Bill began the business, I was one of three employees for months. As the business grew, the office work grew and I eventually had coworkers up front and became the office manager. Woohooo! A title! The boys were a little older and more self sufficient. I had some free time in the evening to knit or do hand sewing if you count free time as waiting in stands during baseball and basketball practice or on a very hard chair during piano lessons.
I am thankful that crafts and reading have been my friend and time filler during those hours.
A few years ago I was able to retire from Bill's business. There was no fanfare and retirement party because I still show up occasionally, lately more than occasionally as we dismantle the business. If it weren't for the computer, I would probably be very productive with all my free time. The boys are on their own, I have no time clock to punch, and dinner doesn't have to be a multi-course gourmet affair. I still get things done, but I am not frantically driven unless there is a deadline like a birthday, a shower or that big December holiday. People who are driven to be productive may look at me and see laziness. I struggled with guilt for a while thinking that I should do more of something now that I am not working until one day I woke up and realized something. If I give up the guilt, I am happy.
I am very happy and very lucky to have the time and means to do what I want. And for that, I am very thankful.